So What's Next?

 I forgot to upload the sneak peak pics the other day from our family photo shoot J they have the copyright across them bc she hasn’t finished editing all of them. I can’t wait to see the rest.

I have such a beautiful family and we have so much fun together. My family is my whole world most people throw themselves into their careers, but I have found I would rather put my whole heart into my family right now while my babies are still young. So Jordan and I had a long conversation last night and after taking a year off from school to have the baby I am going to start back up in the Spring. I have 18 classes left to finish my degree which will take about 2 years…I always feel guilty for wanting to finish school though.

Finishing my degree is so important to me to just have that feeling of … wow I earned this myself…I did it. I can’t wait for that feeling! The reason I say I feel guilty though is because I work full time so I will have to take classes in the evening and I  feel like my kids will feel neglected while I am not there. I know it’s a silly fear because they will be at home with Daddy I just have a hard time doing something for myself and being a little selfish for a change.

I know it’s what’s best for our family though because once I finish I will have much better career opportunities. There is something about being a mom where you just want to put your life on hold and serve your kids and it’s hard to stop and make time for something you really want to do. Jordan is such a great support system he is always encouraging me to finish and to not worry about the kids he says when they get older they won’t even remember me being gone just a couple hours a week for school. His parents were also finishing school when he was young and he said he would even go to school with his mom while she was finishing nursing school and sit in the back of the classroom and color or play with cars. In the end I am doing this for my kids and how will I be able to get them to finish college if I don’t even do it? So it will be done! I can’t wait to start back next semester!!

Enough about me…I am sooooo excited for my husband too only 4 more weeks and he will be graduating the police academy!!! He has put so much hard work and effort into this academy and he has some really tough tests coming up, but I know he will do great I can’t wait to see him in that blue uniform getting a badge pinned on him!! God has always been there for our family and has never steered us in the wrong direction. He has brought our family through some tough times the last couple of years and I have a feeling it’s all going to go up from here J